mohawksandink

Fuck, i hate my livejournal

2009-07-19T00:06:17Z

Cause it seems like there's only shit ass boring stuff in it. Good morning world, i've to start thinking about my stencil for the screen print tees.and head to bed! i'm excited about the pictures though.

Guess what?

2008-08-30T22:21:07Z

Fuck all your beautiful lies, YES! you should know who you are! Well, maybe not just one, i guess its two.Hahaha! Didnt i warn you about everything, It takes two damn hands to clap and you gladly know it for yourself. Haha, so well, TO THE FIRST HAND, Not a bad try, but maybe you could do a little better. When you always gave that stupid attitude, when any of us talks to girls that you know first.Well, in your face.Maybe we could use a little FAITH, hope she doesnt figure out the beautiful lie you've been trying hard to work out.HAHA! oh yeah, and i saw every single text that you sent (: I told you so, i kinda pity her, and i saw what you said in the text about that too. so why try coming near whats supposedly mine, when you know that i would kinda spoil everything include what you have.

Now to the second hand that claps on, I ASKED YOU WHETHER YOU HAD ANYTHING GOING ON.You said no, yes you didnt lie. BUT you went on, not listening to any one of our words. What if its in your face, your bf had something to do with some other person.You feel happy? You said you wouldnt want to sit and watch me get close to the girl i'm really attracted to.well, it probably feels ten times worse for her.And when you could lie in my face and said that you had nothing going on with him till you snatched the phone away from me,And i saw that damn msg.Hahaha, i bet you just wished i didnt look through that phone of yours.Well, you see, being complex is one thing, saying minus the complexity is another thing.well, i guess you just made yourself far far worse babe, I wouldnt deny having getting pissed off with dew, asking if you were talking to that L-O-V-E of yours is out of jealousy. But it still came down to one special thing, i thought i had something for you.If you wanna know,haha,i'm still thinking if i look like a fucking fool to you. So much so that you think you could fucking lie to me, and i look so much like a fool that the other hand would want to come into the picture and take something away for himself and he thinks i would just be there watching. So much so for taking the time to go through your livejournal, and even watching that video of yours.Hey hey! for all you know, i might have fallen for that, but i regret having to believe in every lie of yours.

Hahaha! but its alright, everyones back to doing what they're supposed to do! And here i am again! trying to get my beautiful sleep.
I wanna wish for something, A REALLY SIMPLE GIRL, WITH GOD BLESSED SWEET LOOKS, AND A REALLY NICE VOICE.
Does that sound really demanding?? Hahaha,guess not.

When i was 8, i wished that my mummy and daddy would love me,i would have fun in school everyday,get many friends and probably lots of toys.
When i'm 18 now, i wished that my mummy and daddy would STILL love me, that i wont have to attend school, get many girls OR RATHER a nice gf and probably lots of money.
What a drastic change!

Fake

2008-08-26T20:46:54Z

Its been a really long time since i last typed any shit here! Its kind of a good and a bad thing! Good cause it shows i wasnt bothered by anything much!(WAIT, i think i'm lying about this one) Bad cause i should fucking update it.

Its been fun fun and more fun with the jackass-es,

Piggy! WAIT! who's piggy! Its me!

And i'm sorry to say i came and left and came and left, which i already have lost counts now how many times i did it.And i wondered how someone could have moved someone with love, well, you did it! (:
I'm really sorry to say! but its sick, the thought of it disgust me inside out.

"What do you want on your birthday "
I LOVE TO GUESS! and if i'm not wrong! HAHAHA! for love to end up in bed!
Lol, i really hate to say that! but you're all fucked up in the head, not you Piggy.

I love you,i really do,and i know it.

2008-04-24T18:29:01Z

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Humans judge, everyone does

2008-03-05T19:27:23Z

If i had a wish it would be for people to learn how to judge others,not just by how they look or how they portray themselves.I may have gone over this more than twice/thrice in my livejournal. But i guess it'll just be something i'll never figure out.Just the word JUDGE trips me out when i think about it,I guess we were all just born with the ability to judge and to be able to define whats good for our sake.How quickly we look at others, and in a moment, or less, we judge them. By their sense of fashion, their voice, or their mannerisms, we make a split decision about whether or not we like them. Why do we do that?

I wish people wouldn't judge me, or anyone else, without hearing the "rest of the story." It's not fair to crucify someone who has experienced emotional pain and trauma throughout life. People pass judgement when things are "foreign" to them or when they see something that is, for them, out of the norm. People judge when they don't fully understand the reasoning behind another's actions. People judge when they are afraid or they need to place themselves above another.

Don't judge people. Be interested, be curious, and ask questions. But don't judge. Everyone has skeletons. Only those who bravely expose them in sharing their story can help others and, hopefully, keep someone else from making bad choices again and again.

If you wonder why someone has ended up living their life they way they have, ask questions so that you can understand it. Be curious, be confused, be baffled, be shocked; but don't be judgmental, because being judgmental is YOUR character flaw.

If i knew i would turn out like this,i wish i was born somewhere else.Where the society wont judge you just as much.Well lets see,Maybe mexico?jamaica? Hahaha,but then again i love the people i have around me.I don't blame people for judging others,well lets just say such if life! (:
I'd be glad if people ask before judging.
Goodnight world!

You keep me going

2008-02-20T21:37:50Z

I've been awake for 37 hours! plus work and soccer! How great!
I've got another half-day of work and i'll meet GF(HAHA,YES FINALLY) at toa payoh.
I dont feel like working! ):

All i could wish for this christmas

2007-12-19T23:05:20Z

1.spend it with dew, shi xiong, desmond, faizal and a few others,but i know their being fucking irritating by going out of this fucked up place on christmas

2.Get presents! i mean who doesnt want that man! HAHA!

3.Spend time at home! (:

4.Walk the streets and watch the crowd and the night lightings, Hold your hand and everything! ARGH! fuck , lets just say i wanna see you this christmas

Cheeesmas

2007-12-19T22:48:32Z

I miss having a christmas tree, shopping for christmas presents and going with mummy to cold storage to order food for christmas

Your guardian angel

2007-12-19T20:54:01Z

Spend the day over at grannys place,
Was having fun watching my cousins play pokemon and listening to them talk about their friends lying bout being in america and stuff.It was simple but i was having fun thinking bout how fun their lifes are.And thats growing up.
But for me,the growing up part is more or less over,and its putting what you learnt to good use.
I think i'll go over to grannys place to stay for like a night or something,I'll have all the time to reflect on everything and stuff and i wont have to spend money to do anything. i can chill with shixiong at tp central and go on and on about everything in life,

Every touch,every smile and every minute spent with you just got me falling deeper into it,
I love you

Every word, every thought, every sound

2007-11-25T23:14:15Z

OH Wait, did i mention i feel like taking my big break all of a sudden.
I've no idea why too,

Oh,and darling,you'll probably be wondering why i know the song.
Its been in my head since the day i heard you humming/singing/mumbling it.

Every touch, every smile, every frown

2007-11-25T23:10:52Z

It been 36 hours without sleep and i dont feel tired at all.I took a walk from bishan to dews place alone and it made me think of alot of stuff,Stupid random stuff. Chalet was fun,overnight at bishan with issey and all was fun too.
Hahahaha,so we lost the match when we thought we could have kicked the other teams ass easily,we were down 3-1 and i was brought in again to make a impact! we made it back 3-3 but conceded a free kick at the end of the match.Overall it was a damn great game!

hello grace here to like rule and dominant this post oh yeah ! yay me ! i am damn smart can , anyways , i am damn bored , alex just left , which is very sad , cause i EFFFINNGG miss her , i think so does akira , but then again , i might be able to see her later , ! yay ! i don tknow really i'm so near yet so far away from her , i think that akira thinks the exact same thing as me , but i love her more than he does , i'm not sure , LAWL , wait then again i think i really do , hahah she knows that i love her plenty plenty , i am so fucking tired its' unbelievable , but then again , i can't sleep cause i'm so bored . but who really cares right , yes that's right grace , talk to yourself and pretend that youre talking to the computer. i just finished watching the fairly odd parents , i swear it's DAMN ODD , it's so WEIRD . i like the baby sitter , oh wait this is akira's blog , i forgot .

i think he's going to kill me cause he's like growling my name , in a very FIERCE manner , my eyes are watering like mad , and i'm FUCKING SHIT ASS TIRED , but i'm like here typing this is capital letters ,

I MISS YOU ALEX . ( :

more than akira will ever miss you

wait i forgot to add that i love you more too

ok i better go away now akira is going to kill me ,

EVIL SNICKER - AKIRA .

GOODMORNING PEOPLE .

goodnight world ,

grace OUT .

ZOMG I AM SO FUCKING COOL !( :

yay !

bye

I swear grace is talking a lot of nonsense - AKIRA
Grace suck big time cause she reckons that she MISSES and LOVES alex more than i do.
Which is practically impossible cause i think only the roaches love her more than me,cause she's the only "COOL/LOVING" kid who saves them from my kicks! HAHA.
I miss you girl , i was damn irritated just now when i was waiting! a hungry boy is a impatient boy! And i only got to spend 1 hour or so with you.

You know i'll never get enough of seeing you, LOVE.

The com took a break,

2007-11-16T23:30:45Z

So,lets say the com decided to take a fucking break leaving me with only the scv to pass time.
So its back to soccer sleep soccer sleep soccer sleep!
I need a " how to get a life for idiots" book

LOVE

2007-10-31T16:38:06Z

I dont know why,but i can feel it kicking in again.
Thank god its the end of the month and i'm gonna see a doctor.
I love you
Friends and family too!
I know that you'll be everything someday.

Patience is what i need

2007-10-14T00:01:46Z

So yeah,i talked my sister into coming home on time and NOT compromising about coming home any later than 10-11,You're only fucking 14 Girl,Think about what i said alright.You'll be surprised if i leave one day and not come home ever again!
So i havent been doing much other than like clubbing and drinking and getting hot on the dancefloor! LOL,I gotta start brushing up the shuffling so i can shuffle with the mats in the club! LOL,i so envy them!

I'm gonna start staying home again! sorry people! but i really got no mood to go out,
I'm having my withdrawal mood again,

Things i got to do this week
1.Save up
2.Club again! Hahaha,but i shant spend that much money
3.Get my new ink! just a few lines and stuff,i dont think it'll take more than 15 mins though
4.Monitor my sister
5.Think about what i'm gonna do for the rest of the week,
6.GYM! three times next week
7.Remember to get present for elaine and priscilla
8.Get more piercings
9.Do more drawings!
10.I miss you alex! get your ass back.

Please sister! get some sense into your head

2007-10-06T21:31:59Z

I was feeling like shit! i had to off the fan and not type so that i could enjoy the silence!
i needed someone to talk to badly but everyones either asleep or out.
So i could only talk to myself,
Akiko! please get some sense into your damn head ok! do whats right,and fuck trying to cover up for your friends,i mean do it at the right time,
I dont want you to follow in my footsteps.

I've been home for 24 hours,someone! please save me!

More happy days to come

2007-10-03T18:14:06Z

Studying had never been so great,
"Stop stoning,ston-man!" LOL,that seriously cracked me up!
Waited for 1 and a half hour before rich,wei jie and charmain came! Charmain lim! you're late!
Did mensuration,and watched her sleep! Waited for rich to come and they did their art.

I'm extra happy but yet i know i'm damn worried for you D
I know nothing i say is gonna cheer you up but please! think about what i said ok!
I enjoyed the bus rides and walking you home (:
LOVE

I'm just stuck in a moment

2007-10-01T14:21:35Z

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard

I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing

I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep

I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

Maybe i should just take a long break, (:

Long break,

2007-09-25T20:59:09Z

I've been very much lazing around! or rather not getting enough sleep,so i rather not blog.If not i'll just start crapping again!
So i've been working out and gym-ing very much!
Akira: Eh akina! Do you think i have become bigger in size?
Akina:*with her f-ing stupid tone* Like duh!?

Wooooooh, at least my efforts didnt go to waste! :)

So people have been asking why i havent blogged lately! its just that i dont have the mood??!! i dont know,or rather i dont have anything much to blog about if not you people will just be laughing at how damn boring my life is!
Oh yeah,i wanna go prawning,fishing,chilling at the beach or night riding! Please tell me someone will have the heart to do it with me?
Had fun with dew,faizal,sisters,cousins and donna at toa payoh playing sparklers and candles! Will someone please tell faizal that he's got no childhood! He finds joy in going around collecting rubbish and burning them.He enjoys watching the stuff burn! Dew and me were busy making rockets with the sparklers.MY WAS THE FREAKING CHAMPION! it went 5 storeys high, hahaha,i love the feeling of winning maybe cause there's nothing much that really makes my day except seeing this pretty small girl that came up to me when i was making the rockets,
Hahahaha,i'm gonna sound like yet another michael jackson but who cares.She has beautiful long hair and big eyes.So i told my sister to get the sparklers with the money i got,I DIDNT GET HER NAME ):
Small girl: There's no more sparklers at the shop! my mummy just went over to get it.
Akira: Really?! Oh hello,you're?!
Small girl: I shall not tell you my name! I shall call you "Tattoo boy" Hello tattoo boy!
I then turn to dew and said,"Hey,i think she's in love with me! LOL"

I want you to be my sunshine,
My only sunshine,
i'll make you happy,when times are great
You never know dear,how much i love you
Please give me my sunshine right away!

I'm on a stairway to heaven

2007-09-16T17:55:22Z

If anyone has a clue how i can make my brain go dead! please tell me asap! i need to stop myself from thinking too much.I only got like 18 hours of sleep in like 4 days! I wanna go into a deep deep sleep badly! preferably with someone i could cuddle with to sleep!
I miss that badly! and i miss celebrations all of a sudden,maybe its cause i havent had a great bday celebration in like 3 or 4 years!
And i'm down with fever,flu,sorethroat and a bad cough and excruciating headache.

Writers block,
If i could travel back in time and spend a day with someone who would that be.

I wanna spend time with my dear grandfather all over again! the times we spent together playing mahjong,cards having dinner.Talking about stupid stuff.Its hard to talk to him but i try my best cause i know he dont have many people to talk to and i know how that feels.I havent been close to him,not as close as i was with my grandma.But i still miss him dearly! If i had a chance,i'll spend everyday i have with him by his side when he was in the hospital,instead of spending time towning and stuff.
Mummy:Come and visit your grandpa,He asked for you.
Me:Not today mummy,i'm lazy.

Two days later,I woke up to the crying of my mum,it wasnt very loud but i somehow woke up,just like that.What happened mummy,"Your grandpa pass away already ok"
I feel fucking guilty! i didnt expect him to come so soon! he didnt ask for anyone that day,except me.And the time i visited him in hospital,he said i looked like a girl with my pretty long hair! I wanted to cry badly but i couldnt.The tears just wouldnt come out of my eyes.
I really didnt wish the next time i'll see him was him lying in the coffin,
I'm sorry grandpa,i really am! and i miss you so badly.

So i'm gonna know if i'm going off to somewhere else tomorrow! Lets hope i'll not have to leave,
Oh and,i wanna get a tattoo "Friends and family"written across my chest!

Family lasts forever

F is for Familiar...
there is no place like home.
A is for always welcome,
no matter how far you roam.
M is for memories,
more cherished each passing day.
I is for inspiration
given along the way.
L is for Love you feel
each time you get together.
Y is for the years to come,
for family lasts forever.

When i was young

2007-09-13T18:24:38Z

Now everyone shall have a good laugh tomorrow! Yes,thats me! THATS AKIRA!

See me for the last few times,please

2007-09-11T18:35:50Z

What else can i do other than to worry,i'm not gonna sit by and wait to go away for like 4 years when i didnt do anything

Oh please god,
You know i'm remorseful even when i didnt do anything.
I believe you know what i was going through.
So please,i know you're gonna help me.

I'm gonna miss you friends,Family,smelly,Doggy even though you smell like crap.
):

Its time like this i get satisfied easily

2007-09-11T11:00:51Z

Woke up to the stench of my dog! I swear it has body odour or something! LOL, so i was surprised to not see marv and all at my place.Rang chevonne up and she headed over to have lunch and chill with me! (: yes! thanks chevonne,i was damn lazy! Prata prata prata! then home to watch the tv and laugh at my photo shoot when i was about say 10 or something! Yes,someone tell me i was all a mummys boy! she just had to say! Go for it and i'll bring you to the place with many balls and the huge maze, i had to give in!

Someone save the shitbrick.

mohawksandink

2007-09-09T11:53:52Z

Right,now all give chevy a round of applause! Its the first post of the day,so i shouldn't brag on how much i hate my life,how much i wish to die now,how much this and how much that! i guess everyone will just turn down my friend request! (:

I cant help,but it just bugs me like how that ant worries about its life every time it crawls on me,whats the next step of its life.